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I really like dolphins and kingfishers... I also like eagles and budgies; those budgies who kept me company seemed reasonably happy in their cage while together, but I couldn't get mentally around the concept of cages. So now I grow some orchids. I prefer sanctuaries.
I have a loving family and friends, but in the past I experienced a lot of curious communication problems (even with my close family and friends, more so with professionals like teachers of diverse subject at high school, especially scientists and really incredible misunderstandings with doctors). We share a common native language - Czech, but whenever I tried to say something meaningful, adults and even most peers would understand it in a very different way, so since childhood I was forced to think of how to express myself somewhat more clearly. Those problems tended to accelerate. I got wildly unbalanced. I would say, that several times I happened to restrict my options almost to 0, (not intending to do anything to harm myself or anybody else, just to clarify) but 0 would be impossible, they would be somewhere between -1-1 except 0, and of fractal or oscillating dimensions. But I do not know - maths is my hobby, not profession. I was lost and I lost it.
And for a very long time since, I was or rather felt out of options. Downcast, exhausted, depressed and way too sluggish or decelerated (compared to my childhood and teenage years). Yet I was not idle; I studied and I worked and did my job (freelance English teacher) as best I could, caring for and trying to reach to my students.
I remembered some of the means of communication I learned in childhood: I loved meaningful communication and dancing, and my mum loved music and poetry and my dad art, my brother has always been good at spending his free time on computers. Now he spends both his working time and his free time at a computer. But that might be my fault; early on I (7) tried to persuade him(4), even bribe him into going for a walk with me and identify trees and plants. I was desperate, mostly because I made a little workbook (handwritten and illustrated, with some leaves glued in) and wanted to play a teacher; which did not really work well, my brother was not inclined to play my student. But a lesson was learned: You should never ever try to bribe the unbribable!:-) Not even brothers...